College has been a very diverse experience for me. A lot of ups and downs. I feel like I am at a completely different moment in my life now than I was freshman or sophomore year. Physically, I am. But I also feel like emotionally and maturity-wise I am as well. I made plenty of mistakes this past semester that I deeply regret. My mom has commented that my maturity has declined to even lower than it was in high school. And I would have to agree. I miss the person I was in high school. I am trying my best to regain some maturity and excel as a near 21 year old. I am looking around for examples and guides including how to dress, how to act, what interests to have, and what things to lose. Waukee High School has been the most positive schooling experience I've had. The other schools I went to have shaped who I am today but no other school has helped mold me as much as WHS. There are several inspirational and simply neat life paths that have evolved in the lives of students who were in my graduating class and older or younger students. Chloe is now in Georgia working on the set of the Vampire Diaries and The Originals. Aaron is in New York for journalism and writes for Buzzfeed. Tanner Volk is a professional model. Taylor Makohoniuk is something important (I haven't figured it out yet) and is dating an actress. And the most simple storyline that has been on my mind a lot lately is the couple Abi and Evan. They are one year older and they recently got engaged and will be married soon. I follow both of them on Instagram and Facebook and I have been vicariously living through their lives and she has been a major influence on roles I am imitating. Her fashion style and taste in general. Their life seems so exciting. They just bought their first house and got a puppy. I know all lives have flaws but I really have been enjoying watching theirs unfold. I also have been inspired by a few others shown below. I am hoping that having these role models and examples will help me to mature and succeed in life that will lead to the best choice-making and life for me and for my mother. I hope to be the kind of daughter she can love and be proud of again. It will just take some time and effort on my part. Person I am striving for: organized mature well dressed put together adult like focused healthy goal oriented successful motivated sophisticated graceful kind poise independent loving kind patient positive in shape Goals to achieve this:
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Health and Beauty Related Goals:
I get sad because people around me keep getting engaged and married and I see myself getting a career started and graduating and everything but I have a much stronger image and feeling that I am meant to be married. I just know it. My personality, strengths, weaknesses, everything. It just makes sense. I love serving, I love showing that I care and complimenting. I love being in love. And marriage is a sleepover everyday with your best friend. And that just seems like what I'm meant to do.
Carrie Underwood is such a powerful singer. She is such a strong woman and inspires me to be strong like she is. Almost every song brings me to tears. They have such emotion behind them. Here are some of the best ones: Temporary Home Because it helps remind us that Earth sucks, but God has something better, just have hope. Something in the Water Because she points out the beauty and spirituality of baptism. Just a Dream Because of how heartbreaking being in a relationship with a military soldier is. See You Again
Because death and mourning is hard to deal with.
"Are you always this persnickety?" "Sometimes I'm persnickety-er"-V
1. Chuck Bass.
2. Blair Waldorf. 3. The unalterable friendship of Blair, Serena, Nate, and Chuck. No matter what. Blair and Nate helping a stumbling, drunk Chuck to his father's funeral. Blair, Nate, and Chuck helping drunk Serena after a drunken night as a result of Georgina and her "killing" a guy. Serena helping Blair when she has a bulimic episode. 4. The Outfits. 5. Vicariously living through their lifestyles. I have never had the luxury of summering in Paris, or the Hamptons, or summering at all. And watching this show helps me lust after that life since I will most likely never experience that. Unless I will someday.. We shall see. 6. The Chuck and Blair whirlwind. 7. The heartbreaking parent-child relationships 8. The outrageous unrealistic view of the high school lifestyle. 9. The well developed plot lines. 10. Spoiler: Something I don't like. Vanessa, Charlie, Georgina (least hated of the list), Jenny. |